I was not kidding. I actually made the blog. The blog is http://writingsbyidslc.tumblr.com/ (That is WritingsByIDSLC) (IDSLC-IDontSmellLikeCurry)
Now those posts that are up right now are from my private blog. I never really anticipated publishing those posts to a public blog. So I only picked posts that did not contain names. Though no names are written in the posts, it may not be too hard to figure out who the posts are about. I am sorry if I wrote about you and you do not like it. It is what I felt. I tried my best to use as neutral as possible kind of posts.
The reason behind this blog is for my silence to be broken. To reconnect to everyone. To help anyone going through tough times. To build my ethos inorder to help people. I am not doing this for attention. BELIEVE ME. The last thing I want is to reveal my private posts. But I really feel like they can help people. I’ll be updating this blog often with new writings and new life situations.
If you are ever down, please feel free to write in my ask. I’ll always be here for you.
Hello lovely lovely followers.
I want to start out by asking you something. Why the hell are you following me? I never post anymore.
Well I have a few asks asking why I am MIA and I’ll explain.
I started this tumblr account back in June 2011. I remember because it was the same day as my surprise 16th birthday party. It just started out as a website that people started to get and I’ve always been interested in blogging. At that time my URL was lame. It was just my name. After a month of probably having no more than 50 followers, I began to realize the real essence of blogging. It’s a site where you can spread your ideas and thoughts and your personal life. In July I started doing that. My first personal post was about my third surgery I recently had. I don’t know if it were the medication I was on or the pain I was experiencing, but I let myself out in words in a single post. All of a sudden people from everywhere started viewing my blog. They were writing back. Being so helpful and kind. It was so exciting. Then I officially became idontsmelllikecurry and since then, I’ve been that. From then until about early 2012, I gained a few thousand followers. I talked about my personal issues and just ideas I had. I would get great feedback and messages. I’ll never forget those messages I used to get. Those messages like “I’m here for you” or “I’m going through the same things. Can we talk.” After that, tumblr really became a normal daily event. I started making friends and we exchanged numbers and added each other on Facebook. But in early 2012, I realized my identity of idontsmelllikecurry became known and I now was known as my real name. Eshan. People I knew in real life started reading my posts. My new tumblr friends knew about my past. So at that time I stopped writing very personal posts. I mean I still give my 2 cents on topics, but I don’t share personal stuff. Instead I started a personal private blog. For a little over a year, I’ve collected blog entries. My ups and my downs. It’s been for a most part a secret. Unread posts.
So now where am I today? Today I use my blog as an anonymous user. I anonymously send asks that relate to strength and positivity. I don’t want to talk about it too much because I feel like an anonymous happy ask is better left anonymous than for everyone to know it’s from me or someone else. Today I wrote in my personal blog and I started reading my first posts. It brought back memories and the times I used to share my personal posts. I’ve experienced some deep stuff that I feel many people in the world experience. Especially the followers I have that didn’t leave me and unfollow me during my hiatus. So I decided to make a secondary blog. I’ll be posting most of my personal writing pieces on that blog. From two years ago to writing pieces from now. I hope to be able to touch many people and to be able to inspire people going through tough times. My life isn’t perfect and I didn’t do the best of things, but hopefully I’ll be helping some people from dreadful mistakes.
My biggest supporters through out all these years. Without them, graduating would be impossible. Love my family. #ClassOf2013 (at DAR Constitution Hall)
It is 11:15 on May 23rd, 2013. In 45 minutes I will become legal. I will be 18. I was so excited about this brand new title. Being “legal.” In the eyes of the law and most individuals, I will be an adult. I will have a lot more responsibilities, but will also gain a lot more rights and benefits. But as I look back upon the last 17 years, I can only ponder on my childhood. The only 17 years I can call myself a minor. I loved it. Sure there were things I wish I did. And I regret many things that I did. But it has been the best 17 years. I’ve grown so much. I was shaped to become this adult. I am mentally able to succeed with this title as an adult. A lot of changes will be happening in the next few months of being an adult. I’ll be starting university, moving to a new city, making new friends, embarking on all the opportunities that come in my way. I’m excited to say hello to my future, and I am ready to say goodbye to this chapter of being a minor. Never got to go to Juvi. THANK GOD. And I can proudly say, I never will be able to now. Thank you god for giving me such a blessed 17 years. Thank you for giving me so much love and success. Thank you for shaping me into the person I am today. Thank you my family for every happiness I have . Thank you friends for sticking by my side. And thank you to those haters for challenging me and making me prove to myself that I am a strong ass kid. And I will continue to be a strong ass adult.
